One Moment More...

He left again a few weeks ago.  This is his fourth deployment and our third together.  You try to say that you are used to it and you play strong until you are driving away and then you let the tears fall.   Then you just pretend everything is okay for as long as you can.  I knew it would all hit me when I least expected it.  Just want to share a song I came across that perfectly conveys what I feel like when it's time to say goodbye, right at the very end when I have drive away and see him standing around with the other soldiers through the windows. The gear trucks loaded up and idling, soldiers smoking, and me driving away in the dark.  That might sound romantic, but you don't really want to be there. A goodbye like that is a hurtful place to be, when you want just one more second, one more moment.....