Tuesday, June 12, 2007

Sorry I Missed Your Call....

"Sorry I missed your call" How many millions of voicemail greetings use that line? I'm not sure anyone means those words more than a wife when she miss a phone call from her deployed loved one. This is the burden on me today. I missed not one, but three of his attempts to reach me today. I can even tell you the times- 1:50 am, 1:51 am, and 7:12 am.

I swear that I slept with the phone in my ear, but as I fumbled in the dark, the cell phone got tangled in the sheets and so I missed call #2 by one second. Oh, the torture! I don't know when he can call again. There is of course, no way for me to call back, so I settled writing a couple of long emails at 2 am. I think that I will have to sleep on the couch with the lights on and my computer volume all the way up from now on.

Do you know what the hard part is? Not that I didn't talk to him, but that he didn't get to talk to me. What did he go through to get to a phone? Wait in line? Walk across the base? Have to stop what he was doing? What if he needed me or just wanted to hear my voice or ask me something important or if it were even more serious than that?

Sorry I missed your call, honey. I really am.

7 comments:

Susan said...

hang tight, my love.

Rookie Army Wife said...

I can feel that knot in my stomach just reading your blog. My husband is only away on training but is supposed to deploy soon. I have missed a couple calls by mere minutes and that feeling is devastating. But he knows you love him and he knows you wouldn't do it on purpose. Hopefully, you've been able to talk to him since!

m•riah said...

ugh that breaks my heart.

Anonymous said...

Stella..I feel your pain.I can actually feel the knot in your stomach and the urge to turn those minutes back, the seconds to where you could have picked up the phone and even for a few seconds hear his voice, telling you he loves you and misses you. You just hold on and he will call you again and you will hear his voice and that knot will go away.
I love you . Mom

Lisa said...

I feel you, too. I know the anxiety after missing the call about what he must have done to get to a phone. :-( I'm sorry you missed his calls, but I'm sure he knows you didn't mean to. <3

Anonymous said...

Stop the stupid war, please...

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